He would come to see me every other day from then on and
I would follow him, tagging along as he wandered through a
lost and forgotten world, past traces of buildings hidden
between the trees or withering away in the undergrowth,
serving me puzzles and puns that made him laugh as we
followed old roads that ended abruptly and forced us to
wade through rivers and marshlands. We were the stewards
of the forest and a world that needed our protection from
outsiders that would descend upon us from time to time, to
disrupt and pollute and dislodge us from our peaceful ways.
We patrolled the highlands and the valleys on routes that I
came to know as the back of my hand while the old man told
me how to cut through the land unnoticed from prying eyes
that hovered above or followed behind and he told me
stories of the old world and small anecdotes about the huts
and the people who had built them and lived in them before
us, tales about their tietäjä who had lived in one of them or
rather the-One-who-knew he had said, as if he was telling a
joke, leaving a sense of sadness in the air between us. She
had pulled him into this world he told me later, him as well
as all the others he knew and she had kept him alive with
her skills and her knowledge of plants and herbs and every
time she had nursed him or someone else back to health
she had refused their gratitudes and told them that in one
way or another they had all saved themselves.
He would tell me about the forest that we walked through
and of the rivers that we followed and the pools we passed
on our way, where he had caught his first trout a lifetime
ago. Later we would go back there to fish together but only
after he had taught me how to tie my own flies.

«Soft hackles are the only flies you need when fishing trout
in a river like this», he told me before showing me how to tie
one with colors of red and bronze and a single silver rib to
keep it all together.
He showed me how I should wade out into the middle of the
river before casting up stream, short and precise and then a
few steps before casting again, always upstream, leaving
the imitation to the water for a few feet before pulling it back,
one short tug at a time, so that the hackle would fold around
the colours then letting it rest in the water for an instance,
making the fly pulsate in the water to trigger an attack.
Sometimes the surface would explode almost before the fly
touched down and sometimes the fish would bite while I
pulled the fly back in and I can still feel it in my hands, that
pull on the rod when the fish strikes and I can still remember
the feeling after spotting a fish thats feeding in the stream
and then catching it moments later.
And I remember thinking that we looked like a pair of
herons, walking up stream in the shallow river, searching for
frogs and fish to eat, wondering if the herons would ever feel
like anything other then herons.
And then he told me about the eight starred cabin and that it
had belonged to the No-Lords of the Mountains, a name that
he bore with pride even though it had meant to mock him
and added that he would have been glad to know that his
old hut was offering shelter to someone again, no matter
how run down it might have become. He always laughed
when he spoke of the No-lords and his constant defiance
against anyone he deemed a threat to his world.
«You know, we could have been sitting on the shore of a
great lake if it wasn’t for him, all that you see before you
could have been hidden beneath thousands of cubics of

water», he said one evening as we sat by the kitchen table,
looking out the window.

As he spoke I could see the valley fill with water until the
highest tree tops were submerged, leaving the descending
sun to mirror itself in an impeccable and gigantic mirror.
«They built the first dam in these parts because they
needed a waterway to ease the transportation of timber» he
continued with a soft yet stern voice. «It was our forest but
they didn’t care if we starved».
«Soon enough this wasn’t efficient any longer so they built a
road around the lake that they had created.
And then, when the timber lease was spent they sold off
small pieces of land where people could build cabins.
They kept the roads of course, so that the cabin owners
could have easy access to their plots and they kept the dam
so that they could have something pretty to look at.
The second dam was built to produce electricity for the
mining company.
We had protested when they wanted to start mining but they
didn’t care about those protests any more than when we
protested against the building of the first dam. They needed
electricity and without it they threatened that they would not
be able to start mining.
So they built another.
Soon they needed a third dam. The mines were making
money and they wanted to expand and now they threatened
that they would have to close them down if they weren’t
allowed to grow.
So they built a third dam.
When the mines finally shut down it was for all other
reasons than the lack of electricity.

They are still there, the dams, and instead of beautiful
valleys filled with trees and flowers and animals and rivers I
have roads that lead to someone else’s home».
He paused for a long time while the sun flickered in the
Great Lake that did not lay before us.
«But when they came for this valley we didn’t protest, we
fought them in every which way we could. Sheep farmers,
reindeer herders, the people of the forest and even the
cabin owners stood up against them, led by the No-lords
himself and there never was a forth dam».
And as he finished his story I could see the valley draining
before me, with the trees slowly reappearing along with the
pollen and the dust, floating through the forest like a carpet
of green and greyish hues.
«And now they are arguing over who is to pay for the
upkeep of the bloody things they built» he said and chuckled
again.
I stayed there till the end of summer before I packed up the
few belongings that I had and followed the old man as he
lead me on a steep path going down in to the valley. It felt
like a defeat leaving the place I had spent so much time
getting ready for winter, like I was betraying the eight
pointed star who had vowed to keep me safe.
«But it won’t do come winter» the old man had said after
telling me about how and when it was built.
And I knew that he was right.
The hut was ready for winter but I was not. I wasn’t ready
for the long night alone in a small room, staring out into the
darkness while the season slowly rolled by, without the
possibility of retreating, without a way out if it got too hard.

So I followed him as he moved effortlessly and sure footed
on a trail most likely carved out by wildlife, gliding beneath
low hanging branches that we had to push aside or crawl
under to pass.
It was a long way down to the bottom of the valley and we
followed the game trail all the way down to a river where the
ground started to rise up again on the other side.
The old man kneeled down beside the stream to drink and I
did the same.
We followed the river upstream as we had done so many
times before, where the valley started to turn into highlands
and the forest became thin and there, in a small clearing,
overlooking the valley, we reached his home.

He had been born here, delivered by a midwife that was said to know all things concerning man, beast and flowers and brought up by a people who had seen themselves as equal to the trees that surrounded them but not as a part of the forest, they were the forest, nurtured by the soil and the rain that started to f all in me now as I stepped into his house, gently at first  before it started pouring. The rainfall lasted throughout the night, eventually turning into a trickle of water running down the windowpane, reminding me of fingers of wine in a glass, washing away the yellow dust that had covered the land lately, still it was difficult to see though the window which made the familial shapes on the outside distant and blurry. I couldn’t hear any sounds indicating that old man was up and I thought for a moment that he had let me sleep in and that he was already outside. But his boots were by the door and his hat was hanging on the wall so no, he was still in bed. 

I waited for a long while before deciding to get the fire going.
Usually he had the coffee done before I got up whenever I

had stayed here earlier and it felt strange moving around in
the cold room looking for matches and kindling that wasn’t
mine.
I put the kettle on.
Then I waited for a long while, silently, drinking my coffee
and waiting for sounds that would tell me that I would have
company.
But no sounds where made.
I got up and walked over to his door.
And waited.
I raised my hand but I did ́nt knock.
«I am awake, I heard him say with a low and tired voice, you
can come in».
I opened the door but I didn’t step inside.
«Today I’ll stay in bed, he said, it happens now and then and
it isn’t anything dramatic. I’ll get up in the evening and have
something to eat or I might stay here until tomorrow, we will
see»
«I will tend to Aurelia and have a walk around», I said, trying
to sound confident.
«You don’t have to earn my trust kid, you’ve had it since
before we met», he said and turned over to his side.
I closed the door, finished my coffee and headed over to the
shed where Aurelia was perched up under the roof.
She would shriek at me as I entered and after a little while
she would jump down to sit on my arm, resting her head on
my shoulder.
We had found her on one of our walks lying spread out
beneath one of the turbines. At first we thought she was
dead but as we got closer she let out a soft shriek letting us
know that she was still very much alive.

The old man had covered her eyes to calm here down
before proceeding to examine the soaked and bloody bird.
Nothing seemed to be broken, apart from some of her
feathers, but she had a nasty gash beneath one of her
wings which would be the death of her without treatment.
«Tyto alba, he said as he picked her up, quid tu hic agis?».
Then he laughed at me heartily as I asked him what that
meant and replied «She ́s not from around her either». He
continued laughing as he turned around and started walking
back home with the bird carefully held across his chest.
We dried her up and fed her once we got back in the shed.
She laid down during her first meal, to weak to stand she
kept a close watch reacting to every little sound we made.
I would sit with her for hours, just looking at her, cracking a
smile whenever she shrieked, talking back as if she told me
stories.

 

She was still feeding when I left, offering a good bye as she
shrieked at me going through the door, wishing I could take
her with me on this walk that would be the first of many on
my own.

It was ́nt mine though, this round, it was still his. I would
always tag along behind the old man as he ventured into the
forest looking for food to forage or signs of traffic, of the
people who were coming through these parts, not often, but
regularly. Most had a reason for coming, others had not. It
was little we could do about it other than to clean up after
them which seemed degrading at first, yet meaningful with
time.
They would laugh at us down in town and I would ask him
why he didn’t seem to get mad at them.
«They don’t mean much to me, he had answered, so how
could they possibly make me angry?»

When I got back that evening he was still lying in bed.
I offered to bring him food but he only wanted a little water
and that I would get the fire going again.
I told him about Aurelia and how she was doing then I told
him of my walk and that there was nothing to report.
He wanted me to head up to the turbines the next morning,
then down to the old loggers road. It had not been operating
for a long time, yet new tracks would appear from time to
time, opening up the road to all and sundry.
But I wouldn’t know what to do I told him, if I encountered
anyone down there, I am not like you I said, you always
know how to handle things.
He looked at me for a while then he said: «Well, that was’nt
always the case.»